in the face of doubt, tireless faith

Wednesday, November 6, 2019


"I've never seen, exactly,
who it is that you paperclip your knees,
meld your hands together and pray to.
But I think I know what he looks like."

–Your God, by Rudy Francisco

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I write this under the risk of not sounding like myself. Of forwarding honest thoughts that may seem controversial to some of my readers. I don't write about my personal faith. If at all. I try not to, anyway.

It's like having a private, sacred corner that you want to keep guarded from public commentary. However, there hasn't actually been much need to defend it. At least not in the social circles I grew up in.

I was born into a Christian family, and I went to a Christian school. My faith was a personal decision, but also a constant shared experience. I've spent a large portion of my life attending churches and remaining in clusters of "fellow believers". Warm. Uplifting. Familiar. It was everything I knew.

friendly reminders

Thursday, October 10, 2019


Where you are is where everyone is.

You're not sure about your career, or you're struggling with your studies, or it's been a series of bad days. If you think you're alone in feeling this way, you most likely are not. Stress, anxiety, fear, loneliness, or whatever it is, can feel crippling. But each time I voice it out, thinking that I'm weird or alone for feeling this way, the only thing that ever happens? It resonates. Invites a chorus of "I feel the same way." So take this as a sign for comfort. That everyone, at some point, has felt what you're feeling. Many – in fact, the people around you – still do. Yet here we are. Here we all are.

my heart, as explained by metaphors

Sunday, September 29, 2019


1. A messy bedroom I distract myself from cleaning
2. A marathoner with an ankle bruise
3. A compulsive liar
4. Exposed brick.
5. The scent of cinnamon.
6. Maggie Rogers' album, Heard it in a Past Life.
7. A coffee shop which only opens on Easter weekend.
8. A department store with 16 different aisles, open 24/7.
9. The smile I make after blowing out birthday candles.
10. A glass of wine I pretend to like.

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